I won’t lie… Halloween was tough. This time a year ago Kenzie and I were meeting up with our Mummy Luv Club to dress up for Halloween, or doing our photoshoot and endlessly giggling at how cute she was as a sub and the fact that she wouldn’t stay swaddled for more than 2 seconds. This year all I have are memories of her. I can’t help but imagine how tall she’d be by now, how many new words she would’ve said and what we would’ve been doing. I’m also surrounded by babies her age. Literally, from Family, to friends, to childhood friends and new friends from our mom’s club, all of our babies were born days apart, the same year. Watching them grow is hands down the most bitter sweet thing I have ever experienced in my life. I’m so happy to see them grow and to see the joy that they bring their parents, but not having Kenzie here and not seeing her grow too is gut wrenching to say the least. When I tell you I bursted out in tears seeing all the babies in their costumes yesterday and how big they’ve gotten…. Sigh. I just wish she was here. Every moment of every day. Whatever we would’ve been doing this weekend would have been filled with laughter and joy for sure. But here we are. I say it alot and I can’t help but to, but please cherish the time you have with your loved ones. Especially your kids..soak up every little second. It may very well be your last.
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