First let me offer my condolences to you, I pray you find strength, comfort and peace with the memories you have of your sweet baby.
My situation is nowhere close to yours but a loss none the less. On August 11th 2021 at 24weeks pregnant, I went to my doctor for a follow up on another matter and asked them to check the baby as I wasn’t feeling as much movement. That day I heard those dreaded words “the baby doesn’t have a heartbeat”. My world was immediately shattered. How? Why? why ME? Up until 2 weeks ago my baby was perfectly fine. I made the decision to start the delivery process right away. So I went home, packed and went to the hospital. I was admitted right away and they started me on medication to induce labour. Two days later on the 13th I gave birth to a baby girl who was perfect. This experience was the hardest thing I have Ever been through (not labour, that was easy). I cried and cried I questioned God, and I cried some more. Both me and the baby were tested, and they found no reason why the lost occurred. “Its just one of those things” they said. I eventually started going to counseling and that helped tremendously. I am doing ok mentally now, even though I constantly think her and about what could I have done differently. Her due date is approaching and I don’t know how I’ll handle it, but I pray daily and ask for strength.
