Today marks 100 days since you’ve been gone Kenzie. One hundred. I remember when one day was too much for me. The only time you ever left my side was to be by your Dad. And that was so hard for me. But I did it anyways because, your happiness, well-being and future, regardless of my feelings, were the only things that truly mattered.
Burying my child is hands down the most unbelievable thing I’ve done. The morning of her funeral, I somehow managed to go to the funeral home, make sure everything was ok and she looked beautiful in her second dress, and drove her up to the church for the service and burial. I floated through the entire process. It didn’t feel real.
I won’t lie… Halloween was tough. This time a year ago Kenzie and I were meeting up with our Mummy Luv Club to dress up for Halloween, or doing our photoshoot and endlessly giggling at how cute she was as a sub and the fact that she wouldn’t stay swaddled for more than 2 seconds.